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If assholes could fly, this place would be an airport.

I always wish I could be anywhere else during the day except my desk at work in the echoey little office. So my mind drifts to the cool idea of having my own place. To know where everything is, to know that I can walk around naked, leave kitty toys anywhere, take out my books and thing-things...I miss that. But my job... Every day, as the... Read more →
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Not So Mainichi

I have finally filed for divorce. Papered in and everything, and I am just waiting for the time to pass so I can close this musty old moldy book. I am hoping that there are no hard feelings, or legal actions taken, or overreaction on his part, that it just slides smoothly into the future, and the thing is done. I have been so busy since... Read more →
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Adventure: State Fair of Texas

Last weekend Tony and I went to the State Fair, and I didn't even really know if I wanted to go or not. I haven't been since I was little, and I didn't remember it being much fun then, all crowded and hot and confusing. We went Saturday afternoon because I couldn't be bothered to get up before noon. I am so glad I went with someone... Read more →
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Peon Tjie

People who don't pay attention when they drive suck. They just do. When I go to teach my night classes during the week I drive down a street that has an island between the east- and west-bound lanes. Thus to turn left at this intersection, I have to go through two lights the one on the E/W street, and another on the N/S street. People line... Read more →
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Sinlynn

I finally heard from Adeline today thru email. I miss her so much. It's the little everyday things, like a conversation, or a dumb thing I did, or something I noticed, or something he said, that I miss telling her, and hashing out with her, hearing her opinion. I can't even hardly find time to write in this damn thing, so email is tough,... Read more →
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Winter is coming!!!!

OK, so it's 77 degrees outside, but I can just smell the winter coming, and I am NOT happy about it. I HATE being cold. hatehatehate it. Wore a sweater today that Tony got me, and it's fuzzy and soft and warm, but I don't want to have to wear it. For the first time in forever, I put an extra blanket on top of my down comforter last night... Read more →
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Cig-free and not so bad.

Everyone makes you think that quitting will be hard. It just isn't...yet. I am waiting for it to be hard. The patch is on my arm (albeit loosely, damn expensive brandless Wal-Mart POS) but I still have cravings, just not in the oh-my-God-I'm-dying kind of way. Would it be harder without the patch? Who knows. Am I willing to try it wihtout... Read more →
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and then I look at my horoscope:

Fri Sep. 5, 2003 by Astrocenter.com Money that you may have been working to earn for a long time may finally come your way today, dear Sagittarius. Don't be surprised, however, if you have to do a lot of running around in order to get it! Plans for future moneymaking projects may come your way, though it is important to remember to consider... Read more →
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I. Am. Job.

I approached my superior about my long-term prospects and, though I don't want to get my hopes up, I am excited that we will be discussing my transition to the company soon. Imagine: Being able to pay for an apartment. By myself. Buying groceries. By myself. Having insurance. Maybe Tony is lucky for me after all, though this whole thing... Read more →
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And then there were 5…

TIMEDAWN OF A NEW ERA ColleenGainsWillpower I am smoking this last pack like it was any other day. I will miss smoking, but not as much as I thought I would. I think. I don't know. I just have to apply my stubborn will and accept that I never really thought of myself as a "smoker", so this whole quitting thing should be... Read more →
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eef.

It's raining again. Damn. I get to see the whole glorious sight out of my office window, but I wonder if it will make me late to my lesson tonight. I always don't want to go to these lessons. They end up being OK, but before they start I feel this sense of dread, and after they start, the time drags, and when they're over, I am so relieved.... Read more →