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On the Home Front

I narrowly escaped jury duty Monday by the skin of my teeth. I had hoped that they wouldn't choose me, what with all of the nonsense about WORK that I have to do. My schedule teaching is so tightly packed that I couldn't bear to take off a week for some idiot woman who didn't call a cab instead of getting her felony DUI stop. I prayed... Read more →
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On the Job Front

Employment has been a challenge for me since I left college. Not that I am unemployable, certainly, I have the oft-mentioned Master's degree, and a certain amount of web expertise, I can write, I cna use computers, I am familiar with Word and Excel, and I am a team player willing to put up with a lot of shit for a steady fucking paycheck.... Read more →
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Cats eat blankets.

This morning, I was informed by Tony that I am a blanket-stealer. No big surprise there. I know that. But I am not responsible for my nocturnal actions. I am only as responsible as a bearer of morning wood is for that affliction. So I kept putting my makeup on and said, "OK". Tony apparently agrees with my nolo contendere plea, because... Read more →
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Dragons and diversions

I am a huge fan of Anne McCaffrey, having started her books when I was in junior high. I have read and re-read them all, until the spines of the paperbacks break and pages start to fall out. I cry every time I finish Moreta (yeah, every time, what of it?) and I am currently in the middle of the massive series again. I know, I've read it,... Read more →
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So long, sweet friend…

Today I sold Fei. It seems like the worst kind of betrayal, in a way, because that little car did all she could for me, and then some. I know, I know, she was breaking down, and would have cost me a fortune out of pocket to fix, and I have India to drive now, like a little sister to Fei, only...Fei is gone. It feels like a changing of... Read more →
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No sunshine…

I see myself lowering into a bucket of despair and hopelessness. And other times I want the world to bring it, in the worst way, so I can strike out against it. and be justified in my frenzy of lashing. I am constipated creatively, stuck, productionless. I don't feel like doing anything; I am numb. Everything is a hazy kind of fog,... Read more →
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Wedding Jitters

We went to the wedding of two of Tony's friends, and it was a traditional Vietnamese wedding, complete with flowers and a little flower girl and late dinner and slouching wedding cake with divine creamcheese icing, a 10-course Chinese feast, an unbearably uncomfortable outfit, and a busy groomsman. And snow. We got a few inches of snow... Read more →
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Got me on my knees…

With a broken heart, I watched the advertisement for the final episodes of Sex and the City. It's not like I couldn't watch the DVDs until they wore to nothing, but I have a sneaking suspicion it's because I feel like I am losing friends in this, the end of the final season. The end of Friends is going to make me cry, but Hell, at least... Read more →
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OK, so I never really talked about Miami…

Or, rather, I did, but the computer didn't save it. I have to rewrite my Miami stuff. Ugh. All of the upper management (read: predators and harassers) are going to be out of town for a meeting until Friday, and I forgot how it feels to be in my office and not feel someone coming up behind me and immediately tense. Bad feng shui to sit... Read more →
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In class…

Well, not really. Class will start in about 20 minutes, but I am sooo excited to be here. Learning Flash. Finally. I hope this helps me land some big creative job. It is harder than ever to get a foot in the door lately, and my foot is bruised from people slamming the doors shut. There's a girl in this class, and she makes it... Read more →
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Tony.com

I just had to tell you about this...I went to Tony's-full-name.com and found some dude I am sooo glad isn't my boyfriend. Whew. He's hot stuff, lemme tell... Read more →
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Turn your head and cough, please.

I have figured out how to talk 'bout people without their names coming up in a search engine. OK, here goes. A person I counted on to become a friend and mentor has let me down. Mr. in a cowardly and dastardly fashion, gave my project away to someone else...without telling me (hence cowardly and dastardly). He wants to take me to... Read more →
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Fei with eggs

That's it, my car is toast. I think. It was worst this morning. Today has just been a shitty day, and the car thing just didn't help at all. I got up this morning next to my angel, and OK, that wasn't shitty. I decided what to wear (limited by the dwindling number of things that fit me that I can be warm in and wear to work), got... Read more →
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Tuesday

I wasted an entire weekend shopping and running around and stuff. I avoided going to another uncomfortable friend's family thing. All of Tony's friends are getting married, and they are having traditional Vietnamese meeting/wedding party/engagement celebrations. Which is great, I mean, I wish my fmaily woul ddo something like that for me... Read more →
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Moving mountains

It's Friday. Wow. Thought it would never come. Now it's here and I don't know what to do with it. I need to pack up my things for moving, finish wrapping christmas presents, clean the litter box, do laundry, pack up the things...I said that. You know what that means, though, right? A zillion piles of STUFF everywhere, divided into 3... Read more →