JournalMy Endless Loves

Voices

If my pets had voices... Tablo would sound like Will Smith...vulnerable, smart, loving, confident. Tesla would sound like Shirley Henderson in Harry Potter...impossibly high-pitched and sweet and yet still cultured...and a little bizarre. Pixel would sound like Hank Azaria as Agador Spartacus in The Birdcage Aoife would sound like... Read more →
Introspection

Communication

One of the ways I make it difficult for people to give me what I want is... My difficulty in asking for what I want. In acknowledging that I have a right to want something different than another person if I want to have them in my life. In being so accepting of people that I accept less than I should, and ask more of myself to make up for... Read more →
JournalMy Endless Loves

Aoife’s origin story

I wasn't exactly on the prowl for a kitten...but I follow Furry Friends Animal Rescue on Facebook, to share the kiddies they rescue, and one day in my feed, up popped Sapphire: I’m a sweet little girl, and I look unique. My fur is black with long silver hairs sprinkled over me like sparkly tinsel on a Christmas tree! I’m fluffy... Read more →
IntrospectionJournalMental Health

sparkle

I've been struggling lately, assaulted by people who derisively, condescendingly, and relentlessly demean my skills, who believe that I am worthless, who cannot see my value, who try to make me feel worthless...and yet don't know me in the least. I'm familiar with verbal and emotional abuse, intimately, and the fucking gaslighting and imposed... Read more →
Journal

Locked Out

So I'm not always the cleverest person around. I'm smart but I'm sometimes immune to details, little things that careful people do to make their lives easier. I've locked myself out of this rental house twice (TWICE) since I moved in about six months ago. Brilliant, right? The first time was the very day I moved in. I'd had a very rough... Read more →
JournalMy Endless Loves

Drunk Ordering A Cat

Photo: Top row: FFAR/Petfinder pix. Second Row: two days after coming home with me.  In September 2014, I adopted a kitten now named Tesla. She was the last of her litter because she was a black kitten, and on top of that a polydactyl. Perfectly silky and sweet and teeny and everything I could want in a black cat. A witches' cat. I have... Read more →
CultureJournal 2

Asian Guys With The Most Swag

Yes, this is objectification. I know that. But I was fangirling the hell out of another recent list and decided to make my own. I've limited this to guys that I am personally attracted to - and the decision which order to put them in was verrrrrrrry difficult so I'm just gonna go in a basically random order.  Mithra Jin 미쓰라... Read more →
IntrospectionJournalMental Health

Dragon Mia

Image by tsaoshin Learning how to love myself has been hard. And although they could not hear as well as their mother, not even the infant dragon, it did not mean that the civil war was not going on all around them…The mother dragon had taken it upon herself to protect the little ones, including those of different species. Dragon or not,... Read more →
JournalRelationships

LoveSong

Image courtesy of Chris Luckhardt - a brother the Internet helped me find. Thank you my sweet friend. Check out his stunning (and often-stolen) work at ChrisLuckhardt.com In a heartbeat, a love song can describe so perfectly the most bittersweet loss, take you back to an instant, that excruciating, desperately precious agony. And still be... Read more →
IntrospectionJournalRelationships

The One

In my recovery, I've been concentrating not only on myself, but also on what love means. What relationships I want in my life, and how I can know myself better and make better choices. I've read a few articles recently that I'm thinking about, mulling over...and that I hope will help me make better decisions in the future. Being on the Same... Read more →
FeminismJournal

Consent is as simple as tea.

I'm putting this here because it's such a perfect analogy. I don't want to lose it in the dark vault that's Facebook. This elevated enlightenment written by Rockstar Dinosaur Pirate Princess.   Consent: Not Actually That Complicated It seems like every time an article is written about consent, or a move made towards... Read more →
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Coral Bones

Sitting in the middle of the living room floor. Dog milling about anxiously, head down, tail subdued. The occasional hushed, then randomly boisterous talk of the movers packing her things. Her entire collection of sand and shells, collected over more than a decade, sitting on the floor in front of her, each painstakingly placed in a glass... Read more →